I thought for quite some time what I would write here. I thought about what it may feel like to be standing in this place right now. But my thoughts don't seem to measure to what it is and what I may face on the other side. Nevertheless, it is time to fly. You know, when airplanes take off it sometimes can take a while to get moving or let alone take off in the air. There are many things that they need to do, and I promise I won't try to explain it because I don't know either. I may be ready to fly, but there a few more things to be done. And I'm doing best to stop analyzing each detail. Because I have noticed that my trying to control don't do one thing for me, God can keep going or stop, give or take away faster than I can snap my fingers. In the past few weeks, as you all know the world has been struggling with this pandemic. It has muddied the waters for so many, but for me...
I learned that there is nothing more precious than my faith in God, no matter what. Life is constant and unpredictable, but Jesus remains ALWAYS. I also really remembered I loved writing and that it is simple to me. It also helps me digest all the things that have happened. In the past few weeks, I learned Basic Training is in quarantine so I had to order a new wardrobe online during covid-19. My mother has so many returns to make, bless my parents they have served me well. What a friend my family is, and I will miss them as I live and breathe. I also tried to sell my car, but not one buyer followed through. Then, Wednesday I was told I may not be going to Basic Training today. Thursday, I was told I am definitely not going today. Honestly, I was crushed. Imagine waiting for 9 months and trying to live in the present and trusting God, then what you have been waiting for is coming in 4 days and it was delayed. I would have to wait 4-7 more months. I cried harder than I had ever cried before. I binge watched Korean Dramas and ate junk food. HAHA, we all have those down days, and its ok. It was time to get up though, I couldn't stay there.
I probably added some extra weight, and this was the first thought I had when Mr. Mcquarrie called me asking if I could go to Basic Training today. Guys, I was in bed, half asleep and shocked. I guess I still am, but its time to fly.
I pray God would be with you all during this time. I hope we all learn that we are blessed to be a blessing. I hope we stand up for the lesser person even if no one else will. And remember the love of God is bigger than all things on this earth. And I love you, keep fighting for your faith always.
All my love,
Chloe (:
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